I am at my wits end. No. Scratch that. I passed the ‘wits end’ stage a long time ago. I just don’t know what to do with this boy. I know he knows the right thing to do. What I don’t know is if he doesn’t do it because his mind just won’t let him, or if he just doesn’t give a crap. He’s just six-years-old. Should he really be at the “I don’t give a crap” stage in life, yet?
I don’t know. But, what I do know is that his horrible behavior is putting a strain on everything and everyone around him. He’s like a poison. Toxic. I should feel bad, even thinking these things. But, I don’t. And, they’re true. From the time he wakes up, to the time he goes to sleep, he’s in full-on terror mode.
I know it’s probably our fault, that he’s the way he is. It’s always the parents’ fault, right? But, I can’t fathom what we could’ve done to cause him to behave so badly. According to reports, from our families, both my husband and I were fairly mild-mannered children.
It seems, that with him, things get worse, the older he gets. I thought kids were supposed to grow out of this stuff?
And, nothing we seem to do – in the way of discipline – seems to work. Timeouts, spankings, yelling, talking, punishments, etc. You name it, and we’ve tried it – to no avail. And, we HATE yelling, or any other form of aggressive discipline. But, they’re only so many ineffective timeouts we can take.
We’re running out of options, here. I’m not sure if it’s an attentional thing like ADD, or what. But, something’s got to give.
A while back, Legacy Publishing Company reached out to me, to review their Total Transformation Program. I, of course, jumped at the chance. Because you know… we’re desperate over here. But, when it came in the mail, the kid was in a good place, behavior-wise. So, I kind of forgot about it.
But, now that things have gone to complete and utter poo – again – I’m diving in head first.
You know, for the first time – in a long time – I’m feeling kind of optimistic. It feels good to be proactive – instead of reactive.
I’ll be posting updates, regularly, to let you know how it’s working.